why it does....?

and, this is why it does.. Allah, selalu laa taw. Astaghfirullah..

Assalamualaikum wbt :) 

Ternyata semua bicaraku, tersimpan di dalam hatiku. Ternyata semua soalanku tak pernah kau fikir di fikiran. Mengapa kau masih mencari kepastian dalam cinta? Dan di sini ku masih menanti jawapannya.

Tuhan tolong nyatakanlah, padanya tentang cinta..

Adakah masih diriku diperlukan?

Tuhan tunjukkan padanya, tentang apa yang ku fikirkan. 

Adakah cinta ini perlu untuk dirinya...

Berbicara tentang cinta kita. Masih tiada noktah penghujungnya. Dan apabila ku berbicara tentang perasaan, simpan saja lah semua itu. Mengapa kau masih mencari kepastian dalam cinta? Dan di sini masih menanti jawapannya...

Even though I tell it not to go,
Even though I tell it to stop,
My heart keeps going towards you.
It doesn’t wear out, it doesn’t decrease.

Why is my love like this?
One by one, I count and count the memories.

My heart can’t rest for even a moment.
It’ll just become baggage that becomes hard to control.

Why can’t I even throw them away?
Really, my heart must have done something somehow.
I must have become a fool that’s blind from love.
Just one place, everyday one place.

Looking at the sad light that is you.
Even the tear glands must be broken.
My tears won’t stop,
I love only you, only you.
Can’t you just tell me?
Even if I hold out my hands,
No matter how much I call out.
You’re always far from me.

It’ll be a love that becomes painful scars.
Why can’t I erase it?

Really, my heart must have done something somehow.
My tears won’t stop.

Just one word, the one phrase that you love,
Can’t you just tell me?

I try to comfort myself with the lie.

That, I’m happy if you smile.

Because the place you’re going towards is not me.
The lonely tears flow.

Can’t have you, can’t forget you. Waiting for you day by day.
I must have gotten ill from missing you so much. From loving you too much.
Just one thing, your heart, that one thing. 

Can’t you just share it with me? 

Can’t you love me?

More than enough to be understood. This is mostly, confession from the first. What the first felt. What the first had. What the first ought to hear from the second. As the first's best friend, even though what's the first hope for is not reliable. Lying is sometimes, quite a way. But, its hard to be kept, for a long time. 

Kalau awak tak text,saya paham..

kalau awak tak call,saya paham..

kalau awak busy sangat, saya paham..

kalau awak dah buang saya, saya paham..

kalau awak tak sayang saya, saya paham..

Cuma saya mintak, jika suatu hari nanti saya dah tak sayang awak lagi, masa tu awak pulak kene paham. Harap awak paham lah ea :') saya banyak berkorbann dengan awak, sbb saya sayang awak :') ♥ 

Comel kan, ni apa yang the first bagi kat aku untuk masukkan dalam cerita ni. 

Sweeeeeet, totally~

Let's read more in "how will this ends..." catch it up, or you're gonna miss the part. :)

As for now, aku kena rest jap dari buat cerita ni. Ahaha, kenape? (EhEh, suke hati lah, tanya pulak, heee) sebabnye, aku lapar. Ngehngehngeh~ jadinye, nak makan jap. 
Sweet-moist choc cake untuk light breakfast je dulu. Lalalala~ ^^, okay then, chiaws XD