what you've done.......

Salam sayang semua <3 <3 <3 :) bertemu lagi kita untuk kali ke 7, dalam episod akhir. Sedihnyaa~ Harhar :D (Errr..mumble! Wargh.) This is the last edition of cerite the first and the second. Knowing them, gives me some roughly idea how can we create life. I've come back to tell semuaa laagii, tentang what you've done. Sounds sedih kan. Yea, memang pun, sebab what the first had gone through, end-up dia macam - err - tak betul sikit. Of course, this things is quite a mess tough untuk dia and the second. The first selalu cakap yang dia sayang the second. Sayu aku dengar. I'm so touched~~ (adeh, udahudah la ea, over la pulaks.)

Err. This part yang aku taknak update sebenarnya. Kesian gak la kat the first. Actually, there's something happened behind all these. But, alhamdulillah dia boleh manage, maybe. Well, like what i've heard, the second macam abandon dia a bit, and as if nye all the blame was on the first. Ape yang jadi? Erm, lets not talk about it, eh eh? :) Aku update sambungan cerita ni je, aku taknak sakitkan manemane pihak. Ape yang aku dengar and tengok pun, the first dah macam hape dah, but dia manage to touch up muka dia dengan senyuman, thanks Allah. (Aku tahu semua cerita, but, tak semua kene bagitau kankan..) 
BIANEYO! 죄송합니다! (SORRY)

Haa, ni aku nak habaq mai. Hampa tunggu dari awai kan sapa diorang ni sebenaqnya? Alaah, hampa suresure dah agak pun the first sapa, and the second sapa. Kan kan kan? Tak baek tipu noh.. (awat bunyi utagha plak neh..)

The first ni, afterall, what have been through, ape yang aku nampak, dia ni kinda sensitive, manja&sweet (ni the second yang bagitau), lovely, quite-tempered but sangat senang dipujuk (klaw pandai laah :p ), and, the second panggil dia, Princess Brutal yang memahami~

The second, ikut apa yang the first describe, of course the first's punya prince Charming. The second ni, sangat charming and handsome for those yang tengok dia especially dengan mata hati. Although, dia narcissistic, tapi warm side of dia boleh cool kan orang dan sangat memahami, cume biaselah ego. (even kekadang dia pun kalut semacam, ni ape yang the first bagitau aku, hihi)  easy-going, suka gelak and actually manja. (err, diorang nih..).

Based on apa yang tertulis kat bawah ni, somehow, ni lah wordies yang aku boleh conclude apa yang the second nak bagitau the first :) But now, the first dah taktau nak cakap apa, eventhough, she's still longing for him. Look what you've done.... Pleading isn't just a way, sebab the first macam dah cold-hearted...

"You know me, so don’t leave like this.

If even you throw me away, I will die.

No matter what happens, let’s be forever.
When we’re sad, when we’re happy, let’s go till the end.
You don’t say that tomorrow.
Let’s love like today is the last.

A life without you is like an imprisonment for life.
You’re a lingering attachment in my heart.

The greatest pain to me,
Is the fact that you became the same as them,

judging me out of no where.

I love you.
You know how I was in the past.
When time passes, it’ll all disappear,
then only you will know...

Don’t go, don’t go, don’t go, don’t leave me.
Don’t do it, don’t do it, don’t do it, it’s not like you.
 Getting farther away, love is breaking apart.

Don’t find me, don’t find me, don’t find me, don’t look for me.
The last, last, last image of me in front of you, 

Remember that, Don’t forget me.

I think I’m sick, I think I’m sick.

I must have gotten sick from missing you so much. From loving you too much."

I'm sorry, forgive me, I was too harsh that night.

I didn't know you would really leave

The words, "I'm sorry", is too difficult for us that we take it to the end.
Because I'm ill-tempered. We fight over stupid things numerous times a day.
You take off crying, I look around and think,
'She'll come back tomorrow. She'll definitely call me first in the morning'

I can't, I'm so bad that I want to be good to you but it's hard. Everyday and night I'm so mean 'cause I'm so real so I'm sorry (but I can't change). Me, whom you love, Sorry I'm a bad person. Yes, just leave me. I'm scared that

the more time passes, the more you get to know me, only disappointments will remain...

But, don't leave me, I know you still love me. Why, yes, I'll tell you the truth, 

I need you, truly am.
Next to you, who is always smiling next to me, 

I'm still too young, and with the excuse that I'm busy, those are just reasons.
Because I'm sorry, because I'm frustrated, I turn my head. 

The bride in my dreams is just a friend now. Upset over the fight, 

we are silent, and yet fading, causing uncomfortable situation.

Don't say a thing. I act tough but I'm not inside. Don't abandon me.
You know that there's no one who will understand me like you.
Oh you, comeback to me..

mainly, this song below, memang untuk the first.....white flag......

But, that doesn't means, he surrendered..jom baca lirik dia...

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you, or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it, where's the sense in that? 

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder, or return to where we were. 

I will go down with this ship, and I won't put my hands up and surrender.
There will be no white flag above my door. 
I'm in love and always will be.

I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again.
And I caused nothing but trouble that I understand if you can't talk to me again.
And if you live by the rules of "it's over", then I'm sure that that makes sense.

I will go down with this ship, and I won't put my hands up and surrender.
There will be no white flag above my door.
I'm in love and always will be.
And when we meet, which I'm sure we will.
All that was there, will be there still.
I'll let it pass, and hold my tongue.
And you will think, that I've moved on.... 

I will go down with this ship 
And I won't put my hands up and surrender 
There will be no white flag above my door 
I'm in love and always will be. 

I will go down with this ship 
And I won't put my hands up and surrender 
There will be no white flag above my door 
I'm in love and always will be.

I will go down with this ship 
And I won't put my hands up and surrender 
There will be no white flag above my door 
I'm in love and always will be.

awak, 1 4 3..

The first was burst into tears bila dia dengar lagu ni, and the numbers. Now that she knew that the second tak lepas macamtu je, tapi guilt dalam diri dia yang menyebabkan dia macamtu.

The first cakap: But, why did you behave like this? Can't we just move on? I know that everything, which what we've gone through is yet a dream, and kite tak sure apa akan jadi pun. Still a long way. Dan, macam awak cakap, tak pasti. Awak tahu, sedikit sebanyak, there is a hope. AND, I know what you have been asking is for our own good, but, jangan lah terlalu drastik. Sedih tahu! And, tak boleh ke biar je saya care pasal awak? Susah? Takpelah, maybe one day, I'll just get off macamtu je. Tak sanggup dah rasenye. Kali ni, lama.. Seriously. But, thank you sebab always be there, sebab dengar saya marahmarah, macammacam lagi la, hehe. Okay, saya ikut apa awak cakap, doa. But, kena ada usaha. Tu je saya nak pesan. Awak, no man is rich enough to buy back his past. Ni untuk awak..

Aku tersesat
Menuju hatimu
Beri aku jalan yang indah
Izinkan ku lepas penatku
tuk sejenak lelap di bahumu

Dapatkah selamanya kita bersama
Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku
Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi
Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya

Tentang cinta yang datang perlahan

Membuatku takut kehilangan

Ku titipkan cahaya terang
Tak padam di dera goda dan masa

Dapatkah selamanya kita bersama
Menyatukan perasaan kau dan aku
Semoga cinta kita kekal abadi
Sesampainya akhir nanti selamanya...

::: SHARING MOMENTS :::

Untuk semua yang kat luar sana, ingat ni... Ni saje je aku share, amek dari blogwalking :)

Have you ever heard the saying “Never regret something that made you smile” well, thats a lie. If I would have known that things would have ended the way they did, I would have never smiled.
Lets not be sad about what happened, who we lost, or how things ended. Things happen for a reason, and at times we don’t know what the reason may be. But I promise you, “There is something always around the corner”.

Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

 ;) X) :D :) =.)

i am still here....

Bismillah :) pabila tangan mula menari mengikut rentak dalam hati**

The first and the second ni, somehow keras kepala sket, they are a bit hard untuk difahami character diorang. Kan? Pusing jauh la aku nak buat cerita ni. Ahaks~ Ingat senang ke? Fuuh, tak... Tak la sesenang makan tutti fruitti~ (Adeh! makan ajer taw). Masa aku amek cite ni, the first macam dah redha. "If this is what's the best for me, I'll try and have to let go." Aku pujuk, aku cakap, bia aku tulis dulu, somehow hoping that it's like pleading the second. And then, serah pada Allah.

The first bagitau, dia nak pesan kat semua orang yang baca (klaw ada la kan, takde takpe.. ^^), jangan jadi macam dia. Kawan dah lama, tapi simpan (for almost 2years, tahannyee). Be heard, speak up. Memang la malu, tapi at least, lega. A bit. Berdebar gak kan tunggu what's gonna happen. Tapi, as what aku punya title kat atas tu, the first cakap "I am still here..no matter what"

AndAnd, the first bagitau aku yang if InsyaAllah jadi, I'm the first yang dia akan bagitawu... Waaah~ such an award gitu. 

From the first : The second, i guess you don't know, yet you don't really take it by heart. I know, those days have been so hard on you, but the same goes to me. Saya orang paling peramah and friendly kalau mood saya okay! And saya lah juga orang paling sombong bila badmood :')

I met you, loved you and hurt by that love. Just looking at you without being beside you, I’m a fool. When you cried, I cried. When you smiled, I smiled. Like a child, just following you whatever you do, I’m a fool. 

I love you but you can’t hear it, I love you but you don’t know it. I shed teardrops in my heart but you don’t see it. I call out your name but you can’t hear it. You are the only one for me but you don’t know it. My love is blind, my love is poignant, and I can’t do that.

Just turn around and I’m right here behind you. My love is blind, I'm sorry. When you’re tired of someone else’s love, hurt by someone else’s love, I shed teardrops in my heart but you don’t see it. I call out your name but you can’t hear it. You are the only one but you don’t know it. Today I call you a thousand times.. Even ­though you can’t hear it.

I love you so, please look at me… I love you so, please come to me. Please come one step closer, I will wait for you. I’m sorry because I only know you.. I’m nothing without you. Because of this bitter love, I call for you… You don’t know… I guess you don't know..

Kadang-kadang Tuhan turunkan petir dan kilat, kita menangis mencari di mana hilangnya matahari, rupa-rupanya Tuhan hendak beri kita pelangi.

The star that's shining from far away. It must have came to my heart. The star that's engraved inside my heart. The star that's shining inside my heart. I think it's you. Do you hear my trembling voice? Do you feel my heart? The love I dreamed about for a long time. I know it's you. Be with me forever. For a long time, even you, also hope that it will shine from the same spot forever. I'll let you borrow and even give my heart, only to you.

Even the star that's engraved inside your heart. Even the star that's shining inside your heart. Tell me, I love you forever. My eyes will look at only you. Oh would you also look at only me? Hoping we can be each other's star.

Heart beats fast. Colors and promises.
How to be brave? How can I love when I'm afraid to fall.
But watching you stand alone. All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow.
 One step closer.

I have died everyday waiting for you.
Don't be afraid that I have loved you.
For a thousand years.
I'll love you for a thousand more.

Time stands still, perfect in all he is.
I will be brave. I will not let anything take away.
What's standing in front of me..
Every breath, every hour has come to this.
 Another one step closer.

And all along I believed I would find you. Time has brought your heart to me.
I have loved you for a thousand years, and, I'll love you for a thousand more.

walk to the end >>>>> in "what you've done :( " chiaw shin chiaw~

how will this ends....?

Assalamualaikum <3 <3

Anyonghaseyo...bună dimineața toată lumea! Ce mai faceți?
Hahaha. Faham ke? Dah agak dah, mesti tak kan? Ngaku cepat... :P

maksudnye, >> hai, good morning everyone! how are you? 
(hah, jawabla cepatt. Diam pulak nape? Erk, garang takk? Ngehee~)

sambung lagi and lagi :) ni apa yang the first nak bagitau the second. Nak confess,
dah lama confess. (Maksud aku, kan dalam episod lepas dah confess. Kira macam, the second masih tak nak caya 
lagi tentang ni. Even dia tolak, boleh tau,Sedih gilaa the first. sambungan sket ar)

I still don’t understand love

So I can’t get any closer

But why does my foolish heart keep pounding?

I’m haunted by you again and again

I just can’t get away

This hopeless love

Hurts my heart so much

Going from day to night

You’re all I think about

Being so pitiful and silly

What should I do?

The heart follows love

What am I going to do?

This hopeless love

Hurts my heart so much

The day when my pain fades away

Will that day ever come?

Being so pitiful and silly

What can I do after all?

The moonlight is so beautiful

I just can’t get away

Let me lie down by your side for a moment

A moment, just a moment

.............................there is no REASON untuk the second taknak dengar apa yang the first nak bagitau........................

Don’t turn away from me!

Look into my eyes
All the world is white

Have you forgotten the promise you made?
Why have you given up on me?
You did that so easily
But to me it was so difficult

From the beginning
We had a love that shouldn’t have been started
My tears are mixed with pleading
That I can’t put more of myself into you

You mustn’t disappear from my life
Know that you are my light
If you leave, you take away my whole world
Don’t forget that it will all disappear
I want to breathe
From in your love…

I smile whenever I think of you
It becomes so hard on me
I cry whenever I think of you
I’m scared of everything now.....

THINGS WE DO NOT EXPECT HAPPEN MORE OFTEN THAN WE WISH

when you are ready to love ^^"From the first time we met, I knew we would be friends. You had a different air than others that I knew. I am also alone in this world I’ve come to know. Finally, I’ve met someone like you.

I know that I might’ve been a bit cold at times. But that was just the way I dealt with all my fears. You took the first step to show I don’t have to be alone. And now I, I know I love you.

I will be waiting for you. Don’t care how long it may take.I will always be right here. When you need to laugh or cry.

You let me know. When you are ready to love. And I will rush to your side. To sweep you into my arms. 

Maybe one day you’ll know the love that I’ve kept inside. I know love comes with pain; it’s so hard to erase. All that I’m asking is for you to let me stay here. Don’t be scared; you can lean on me.

I know I’ve found the one when I look into your eyes. I will wait by your side till you can give me your heart.


>>>> err, maaf.. Ada lagi sambungan nyew~ "i am still here..." tunggu taw <<<<

why it does....?

and, this is why it does.. Allah, selalu laa taw. Astaghfirullah..

Assalamualaikum wbt :) 

Ternyata semua bicaraku, tersimpan di dalam hatiku. Ternyata semua soalanku tak pernah kau fikir di fikiran. Mengapa kau masih mencari kepastian dalam cinta? Dan di sini ku masih menanti jawapannya.

Tuhan tolong nyatakanlah, padanya tentang cinta..

Adakah masih diriku diperlukan?

Tuhan tunjukkan padanya, tentang apa yang ku fikirkan. 

Adakah cinta ini perlu untuk dirinya...

Berbicara tentang cinta kita. Masih tiada noktah penghujungnya. Dan apabila ku berbicara tentang perasaan, simpan saja lah semua itu. Mengapa kau masih mencari kepastian dalam cinta? Dan di sini masih menanti jawapannya...

Even though I tell it not to go,
Even though I tell it to stop,
My heart keeps going towards you.
It doesn’t wear out, it doesn’t decrease.

Why is my love like this?
One by one, I count and count the memories.

My heart can’t rest for even a moment.
It’ll just become baggage that becomes hard to control.

Why can’t I even throw them away?
Really, my heart must have done something somehow.
I must have become a fool that’s blind from love.
Just one place, everyday one place.

Looking at the sad light that is you.
Even the tear glands must be broken.
My tears won’t stop,
I love only you, only you.
Can’t you just tell me?
Even if I hold out my hands,
No matter how much I call out.
You’re always far from me.

It’ll be a love that becomes painful scars.
Why can’t I erase it?

Really, my heart must have done something somehow.
My tears won’t stop.

Just one word, the one phrase that you love,
Can’t you just tell me?

I try to comfort myself with the lie.

That, I’m happy if you smile.

Because the place you’re going towards is not me.
The lonely tears flow.

Can’t have you, can’t forget you. Waiting for you day by day.
I must have gotten ill from missing you so much. From loving you too much.
Just one thing, your heart, that one thing. 

Can’t you just share it with me? 

Can’t you love me?

More than enough to be understood. This is mostly, confession from the first. What the first felt. What the first had. What the first ought to hear from the second. As the first's best friend, even though what's the first hope for is not reliable. Lying is sometimes, quite a way. But, its hard to be kept, for a long time. 

Kalau awak tak text,saya paham..

kalau awak tak call,saya paham..

kalau awak busy sangat, saya paham..

kalau awak dah buang saya, saya paham..

kalau awak tak sayang saya, saya paham..

Cuma saya mintak, jika suatu hari nanti saya dah tak sayang awak lagi, masa tu awak pulak kene paham. Harap awak paham lah ea :') saya banyak berkorbann dengan awak, sbb saya sayang awak :') ♥ 

Comel kan, ni apa yang the first bagi kat aku untuk masukkan dalam cerita ni. 

Sweeeeeet, totally~

Let's read more in "how will this ends..." catch it up, or you're gonna miss the part. :)

As for now, aku kena rest jap dari buat cerita ni. Ahaha, kenape? (EhEh, suke hati lah, tanya pulak, heee) sebabnye, aku lapar. Ngehngehngeh~ jadinye, nak makan jap. 
Sweet-moist choc cake untuk light breakfast je dulu. Lalalala~ ^^, okay then, chiaws XD